Jessica Kristie

Drowning

drowning


I forgot you once,
as the night stilled and the restlessness peered through my back window . . .
and so did you.
Breaking down the whispers of the wind to remind me,
that again–
I have failed.

It is a place I should feel at ease.
A notion that had never really left me,
but continued to sway with the rhythms of my back-steps.
A dance where the muscles inside my body
need no direction.

There is a fluidity buried in my heart
that will always seem to be overpowered by misfortune.
A blanket to cover the blessings.
While the perception remains
that I have drowned.

I beg you to pierce the veil.
See something – anything – that will wash the pity from your face.
My wounds are not a lesson for you,
they are a deep and painfully raw
message for me.

Your judgment need not sit at my door,
I will gladly let you in.

Because despite the ugliness that my bones creak,
or the humanity that this world bleeds,
I will not rule my skin with anything other than what runs from my soul.
It is God’s design for us to love,
and even in the midst of my darkness
that is what I will do.

 

 

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6 comments

libithina on August 19, 2012 3:16 pm Reply

My wounds are not a lesson for you,
they are a deep and painfully raw
message for me. ~ powerful jess – Lib x

Jessica on August 19, 2012 8:26 pm Reply

Thank you Libby xoxo

Megan Crayne Beall on September 2, 2012 3:30 pm Reply

so powerful. I love the line “I beg you to pierce the veil”.

Jessica on September 3, 2012 10:59 am Reply

Thank you Megan! I appreciate you stopping by. xoxo

chimnese on October 12, 2012 6:20 am Reply

powerful & through all that pain God he’s always the one we can hold onto…

Jessica on October 15, 2012 2:04 pm Reply

Amen Chimnese. He is never failing. :)